On three separate occasions I've been described as "relatable". It is difficult for me to comprehend this because I've always placed myself in a category separate from others - the different one. Often times, I am deeply convinced that my thoughts are perhaps a bit too.... intense for others. I've written countless of unpublished drafts here, not posting them simply because I felt that no one could understand - a deeply entrenched resistance against opening myself up to other people. I've always had problems with this... "open" thing. The idea of surrendering yourself (even a little) is unnerving - I hate the thought of being so vulnerable to others. That meant they could hurt you if they wanted to; you're an open wound. I don't like having my weaknesses being used against me. I have the propensity to spend so much time alone in my head, and I think this is where my belief that I am "intense" stems from. Maybe if I just let myself go - just a little - I would realise that everyone has these thoughts. Maybe I am relatable and contrary to my own belief, just like everybody else. Newer PostsOlder Posts
