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Sarah, 18, Singapore
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Regarding physical appearance:
Saturday, March 1, 2014 || 6:45 PM

Blood under her fingernails. She scratches distractedly all the time - bursting open her skin bag to reveal what lays underneath. She scratches when she is busy, or bored, or stressed. Blood spills out of her open wounds, blood - red, sticky, recognisable. The scars all over her legs are testament to this habit she has - fifty cent coins, her mother calls them. She does not do this on purpose, no - she simply finds comfort in scratching and picking her scabs; the edge of her fingernails drawn along the surface of her skin with an unmistakable rhythm. It never hurt, just felt good. She does not do this on purpose - the last thing she wants to do is hurt herself. Scratch, scratch, scratch - blood under her fingernails equals ugly skin equals ugly girl. She knew - no she knows - that. How unfortunate it was to have a habit that made you ugly. 

He liked how dark, shiny surfaces reflect. That meant every dark, shiny surface he passed was another opportunity for him to look at himself. His pretty, pretty face - he never expected himself to have great fortunes in life because he had already struck the genetic jackpot. He felt he could not be lucky again because he got hit by his biggest windfall even before he had his first taste of life. He hated admitting this, but sometimes he marvelled at the contours of his face - how can two eyes, a nose and a mouth look so damn good when all pieced together? It made things so... easy. Cutting queues, getting girls, turning them down. Everyone was nice to him - except bitter girls who cruelly spat in his direction, "You don't know love, you only know yourself." When he heard that, he wondered if he was just nothing but a pretty face. It haunts him on nights he feels that is true.

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